Another long day for me.
It's been awhile.
I'm not going to make any promise anymore.
I blog when I can blog. I blog when I have something to blog.
To say I am swamped is such an under statement.
While I have some good news...my mind can't wander from some issues at work.
But then...work will never be perfect. There will always be issues there.
It's just that for the past weeks, it seems that things are just falling apart and I dread the idea that I stretched the roped too long and allowed people too much freedom. Just when I want to put all my focus and energy towards the new facility, yes, we will be building our second call center here in Bacolod, I am pulled back in due to operational issues. So Mariposa is back...in Operations. It's going to be fun NOT!
No more details...I just wanted to rant a bit about it. Now I'm done.
On a personal note, I just purchased a house and lot. Yes, you read it right.
The house I have been renting for a year now is already mine. And it's a 4-bedroom room...and I love it.
I don't know what else to talk about on Thursday...
I don't look forward to Friday...I will be working on weekends anyway.
Not because I have to, but because I need to. Pfft!
I've been missing sleep...and I'm losing my mind!
Work is killing me...
Used to be the only reason for me not blogging is when I am enjoying too much and life is going soooo smoothly I have nothing to talk about...nothing worth talking about. Right now, I am at the point of my life when I needed to write more about me...and couldn't find the time.
I need my time back...I need my life back...and my mind too! Huh!
This is really just a silly rant post...a not very good welcome back post for me yet, well...I remember creating WTF Moment category before, guess I have made a provisioned for moments like these!
How's life with you guys?!
Today, I managed to go home earlier than usual for an early appointment later. I decided to visit PostSecret...and it still makes me cry...for all good and not so good reasons. Today, I've never felt so lonely...well at least for the past months that I've been joggling too many things at work.
I guess I just need a hug...if only I've got someone with me right here...right now.
For the past days I've been uninspired to come here and write a post. I don't know why. I guess it's just another winter season in my blogging life. Or I guess it's just one of those days when we blame it to the hormones? I wish I know!
Lately I feel so beaten down. I've been having health issues again. I wrote here last time that I wasn't feeling well...and I was able to recover then. After a week it's back again and this time it's worst. My allergic rhinitis is on the loose...giving me colds, hay fever and cough. Last night I was back on my nebulizer again. If there is anything I hate, it's my asthma.
I'm trying to reflect what I've done and failed to do causing my health to be crappy again. I know I've been pushing myself the past weeks but then I've done worst before. Could it be caused by some emotional stress?! I hope not. But then I really don't know.
All I know is I feel so beaten down...inside out.
At some point I feel so alone and empty yet other times I feel the need to withdraw and just spend time with myself. I feel like shouting into the void for I have really no idea what it is that I want to let out. I wish somebody out there can hear my thoughts and can help me understand what is going on.
So for those who are wondering how am I doing...well -- Mariposa is having a less than stellar week!
...please call the Doctor very quick!
I'm off work today due to illness. Pfft.
Okay, let me give you the run down...I have cold...fever...upset stomach...and I can't seem to kick this Bi-ouch! feeling away. (Thanks Jenn for this new word!)
I feel so awful being away from work specially that I was supposed to do an interview with some applicants.
So I guess I will be away from here for days again. (((SIGH)))
...and the culprit is bed bug!
Geezzz...I can't even think where I got them. They are guessing it's from a sofa or chair somewhere as we're just sure we don't have them at home!
Anyway...I couldn't care less where I got them I just hate the itch and the inconvenience it gives me. Did I say it here before that between pain and inconvenience I'd go for the latter? Pfft!
Though I know it can't be that dangerous and that itch is always a common reaction (yes I did search for and found some bed bug information) I on the other hand has some allergies to whatever that chemical they're producing and that is making my skin itch like crazy.
So here I am typing and trying to resist the urge to scratch my legs...and while I'm supposed to be in oblivion with my bed right now, I'm waiting for my ride instead to visit my dermatologist.
Just annoying. I did not notice this awhile ago...and now it's like killing me.
It's 4:20 AM here and I just had my most needed break today!
Ever tried that feeling of being to overwhelmed and preoccupied with something you just need to run away from it? Or at least exhaust yourself to not feel anything about it anymore? I just feel that way today. (I promise to talk more about it when I'm ready.)
Anyway evertyime I feel like this I just take a walk outside the office. We are located in a nice IT Park and it is safe for us to scale the block.
Today I just opted to sit at the coffee shop and just stroll online. I did the right thing as I came across a multiplayer billiards site. What a joy! I used to play billiard when I was in college and playing it online is just as exciting since the site allows multiplayer games. The site is easy to access, convenient to navigate and the speed is just fine. And I was able to play...with international players.
So yes, it was an ice breaker!
I almost got lost with time...I hardly notice it's already Friday!
What happened between Wednesday and now...ask the clueless me, because I have no idea. All I know is I've been struggling to get enough time to sleep and consciously stayed away from the computer and missed Thankful Thursday. All in the hope of getting myself to relax and doze off. All hopes and efforts were in vain.
Anyway, it's Friday and I am still clueless on how time passed me by. All I know is I can't wait to be weekend already!
Please click Haiku Friday if you came here for my haiku...or you may want to scroll down after Friday Fill-Ins!
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It never occured to me to make a post on this issue but what I saw on TV yesterday prompted me to do so...
For the past days, the Hayden Kho and Katrina Halili sex video scandal has been the talk of the town...and to some point in some parts of the world as well.
Brief Background
Hayden Kho, a doctor and Katrina Halili is an actress. Both were linked December of last year, causing the temporary break-up of Hayden and Dr. Vicki Belo, a renowned cosmetic and dermatologic surgeon and is the founder and co-owner of the famous Belo Medical Group. That temporary break-up also resulted to Hayden's attempted suicide.
This month the entire nation was schoked when a series of videos of Hayden and Katrina were released in the public. The first was a video of them both singing and dancing in sexy outfits. You may watch the said video here. That video was followed by another video exposing intimate moments of Katrina and Hayden...and more videos of sexual acts between Hayden and other women, one was with a Brazilian model and the other one was with Maricar Reyes. And rumors say there are still more!
Apparently these videos were taken without the consent of the women in the video!
Current Scenario...
The Senate is intervening on this issue...too seriously that they have to call all parties involved to a Senate hearing. Thank goodness only 3 Senators were present, Revilla, Jinggoy Estrada, and Madrigal. Both Estrada and Revilla voted to keep the inquiry open to the public, forcing Madrigal to accede.
I don't want to put into details anymore what happenedin the Senate hearing...all I'm certain is that, it turned the Senate into a circus! Very sad.
Now I'm thinking if these Senators have other more meaningful things to attend to. As I recall, just last week, I saw on TV farmers fired with water cannons outside outside of the House of the Representatives building. This is just one of the many important issues that this country is facing since time immemorial...and yet, none of the Senators took this concern seriously. Perhapd they were too busy with other more important matters...like dwelling on sex video scandals?! Pfft!
My take on this issue is that the people involved were mature enough to get themselves into this kind of trouble and I believe in their own personal capacity they can reached solution to it without the need of Senate's involvement.
I am a woman and I certainly do not agree and will forever frown at what Kho did to these ladies. Yet, I also belived that these women can fight for their rights and can seek justice any courts in the country. There is certainly no need for the Senate to be involved and waste their time on another showbiz scandal. After all this is not the first time this happens!
After all Sen. Alan Peter Cayetano himself, chair of the Senate Committee on Information and Mass Media, kept off the inquiry as he saw no urgency on this matter saying he would like to do justice to all victims of such nature by focusing more on the clear legislative aspects of the Hayden-Katrina affair...and added, But all these issues may be resolved without turning the Senate into a circus,”
There! He nailed it so well. Maybe it is time for them to examine and ammend laws on pornograhy and especially with the onset of internet as a convenient medium of distribution.
This is the first time that I blog about a local issue and I hope there will no more issues for me to rant about here.
To those who feel and sympathize for the victims, you can do something. Keep silent. Don't talk about it anymore. Let it die a natural death.
And ladies, be very careful! Beware of those cams!
Please don't forgetI know I have been absent and now that I get hold of my blog...allow me to rant. I just find it deemed necessary to do so!
First off, my house has been without Internet for 8 days now! Can you imagine how I managed? Well, so far my site has just been experiencing some dehydration for the past days, not to mention how much I miss visiting you all!
If you recall I always have issues with my internet...since! What I cannot understand is how could they just give me their spiel every time I call that there is an ongoing system restoration?! Why can't they bother inform subscribers? Because these are random? Well...more than a week system restoration is just crazy don't you think?! So this is to call Globe's attention...please restore my service because I think what you are doing is denial of service! And it is so stupid for you to let me pay for my dial-up when the fact that I am on it is because you screwed up my DSL...and wait, your dial-up...it sucks...big time!
So I hope you finally get into your senses and do something...like actually DO SOMETHING!
Now to my next rant...and this thing has been giving me headache...for real!
Last Friday, was Labor's Day...so the long weekend afforded me and the IT Guy a short vacation. If only IT Guy's mood was not interrupted by some meaningless call from one of the member of the city council. I know I run the risk of them reading this...but guess what, I couldn't care less!
Background...
One of the many functions of IT Guy's department is creating specification on IT related requests....so this may be in a form a need to purchase laptops. Apparently, the city government planned to buy judges laptops...24 units at that. Now the IT Guy did the usual specs...and did an estimated cost per unit based on the defined specs. The specs were not the best in class nor outdated...yet one member of the council dropped the bomb and said something like IT Guy's department overpricing the laptops. Overpricing by operational definition only exist after an overvalued item is purchased. In which case...there is no overpricing yet because it was simply an estimated cost to see if the budget can accommodate it. Now if they find it too much all they need to do it ask the IT department for a lower specs, right?
What they did instead was went to the media...and the media ended up calling IT Guy and after about 5 minutes with him on the phone...they were able to come up with a full blown article saying IT Guy claimed the budget was coming the the requesting party which was one of the councilor's office! Arrgh!
Things got ugly from there...first of all, IT Guy was only explaining the generic process withstanding that particular transaction...fast forward today...another paper issued an article with a heading about IT Guy's department when in fact the article was to cater an interview of a councilor? Speaking of journalism...I wonder what is their definition of it by now! Add to that an incident which a reporter just barged in to his office...in a very confrontational and aggressive manner ending up giving threats. Wow! I wonder now if being in the media gives them a license to do those things...because coming from a private citizen, it appeared to me those actions not only out of order...simply an act of an uncivilized person.
IT Guy will be filing a written complaint against that person early morning tomorrow! As soon as he has done that, I will post a copy of that letter here...
So...that explains my headache!
On another note, I am happy to announce that I tendered my resignation from my current job last night...I have not given any commitment with any organization as of now, but I am evaluating offers! WOOT!
How's your week so far?! Not as bad as ours I hope!
Not just today but I'd say the entire weekend...though I'd say I was able to cover some things to do on my list.
Few weeks ago I had some allergies in my legs, got some red marks on both lower legs...causing me to wear pants since I get back to work after the long holidays. Just ugly!
It's no big deal to me really since I'm used to getting those...just that it gets a bit irritating at times! That is one problem of being Asian, we are prone to hyper-pigmentation after an inflammation. So yesterday morning I finally decided to hurry and solve my issue and went to the dermatologist. and while I was waiting for my turn, the IT Guy kept snapping photos...and looks like I just have to share them here to recognize his efforts...yes we he got bored! LOL
