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Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Mariposa, The Charmer?!

I need a break...and found this one.

What an interesting thing I've found...I'm wondering if people I've met would agree with this... ;)

But then, once they share a part of themselves to me, I think it is me that is being charmed from that point....check I Keep Falling In Love With Everyone.

Your Seduction Style:

The Charmer

You're a master at intimate conversation and verbal enticement.

You seduce with words, by getting people to open up to you.

By establishing this deep connection quickly, people feel under your power.

And then you've got them exactly where you want them!

Apple Crumb

I got this recipe from Arlene, and this what kept me occupied last weekend...

1 cup rolled oats
2/3 of a cup brown sugar
1/2 of a cup flour
1 teaspoon cinnamon
1/4 of a teaspoon salt
2 tablespoons water
6 tablespoons butter
5 large apples

Preheat oven to 375 degrees.
Lightly butter an 8 inch square baking pan then dust with a small amount of flour.
Peel, core and slice apples and place in the floured baking pan.
In a bowl blend dry ingredients with the butter and water.
( I prefer to melt the butter in the microwave).
It should make a crumbly dough.
Sprinkle the dough evenly over the apples slices.
Bake 35 minutes or until top is golden brown.

It was nice...and people did enjoy it! Sadly, I was not able to take picture...

Thanks for your variations too, it did help... ;)

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Thinking Out Loud Part 2

Thinking Out Loud, was something I wrote 2 years ago when I was on vacation in Bali. I went to Bali alone...because I felt that moment, I badly needed time for myself, and it was one of my best vacations!

While watching the sunset in Bali, my mind was at work. It made me think a lot of things...more than anything, it gave me a glimpse of what I wanted to have...or should I say, whom I wanted to be with. So I laptop and started typing.

So, Thinking Out Loud, is a love letter to a somebody whom I wish I would meet in the future.
Ace (there you go, I'm calling you Ace though a part of me wants to call you another name...bleh) got to read this and this is what he Skyped me;

"I thought and re-read and thought some more....and had a desire to ask...yet it's Bali...and the lmao threw me so I'll let this describe your holiday alone....and nothing more."

I did not reply...but wished I did. But in case he gets back here, I'm posting my supposed reply at that moment;

"I wrote that 2 years ago, and I waited this long for the letter to make sense to me...for where were you 2 years ago?"

Thursday, October 25, 2007

I Keep Falling In Love With Everyone

I do, really!

Everytime I learn a little more about a person - I just can't help falling in love with them, they maybe in any shape, form or kind. (I mean, regardless of age, gender, race, economic status, etc.)

The fragrance of every personality is so intense, so amazing and colorful to me that it is so hard to feel less than love!

I love the way a person grins/smiles...
I love the way a person gets angry...
(because I find it humorous and cute!)
I love the way a person shows the sweetness...
I love the way a person shows thoughtfulness and care...
I love the moments when it comes to the core values and the person reveals hidden or obvious beauty of his/her soul...
I love the way people are trying to withstand the power of love and then give up following it...(though most of them, just withstand it for too long and let is pass, then I love them more for it)
I love the way people jump into the ocean of love - fearful or fearless, curious or trusting...
I love watching human beings becoming divine...

It could be the case that I only meet such lovable people, the ones who are easy to love.
But I meet so so many! - Is it all by chance?

By the way, this is prompted to the last person I just got to know. You are good and dear friend. Thanks for sharing with me an important part of your life. Thanks for making me a part of your life, if even for a moment. This is dedicated to you and to all the nice people I have met and loved.



Wednesday, October 24, 2007

An Affair To Remember

Our love affair is a wondrous thing
That we'll rejoice in remembering
Our love was born with our first embrace
And a page was torn out of time and space

Our love affair, may it always be
A flame to burn through eternityS
o take my hand with a fervent prayer
That we may live and we may share
A love affair to remember

Tuesday, October 23, 2007


I never learn, do I? Or maybe it's just my true self...jumping all over the place and just a bit puzzled with the backfiring...I realize at some level, that though these shots came out dodged, I am doing what myself purely think is that moment, in that situation....maybe self-absorbed to the point of not gauging or actually, really giving a cupcake as to what the response will be, in that moment, I am my world, yes.

I am a stubborn little optimistic to the end (fortunately or unfortunately), refusing to be or rather as no time to be cynical and or the cynical. I know the world through and through sardonic feline, I leap and managed to land on my feet... :P

I will do it again I know, goof-up, reach out and put both my feet in, take it on the chin, eat the dust and then rise, without a specks.

Time and again, I know, I will be testing my own limits, stretching the elastic, going down down down, plumbing the depths and soaring the next instant. The trajectory just seems never fixed, though some of the streets and alleys look familiar.

As always, I prefer the moody roller coaster to a predictable escalator any day, it's fun being me...


Sunday, October 21, 2007

Random Post

I have gladness, contentment and fears and loneliness rolled into one at this very moment...

...then ouf of nowhere, I remember this.

[Verse 1](Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.

[Verse 2](Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!

(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.

All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.

[Middle-eight](Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way
I feel I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh.
Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

I'm Not In Love

This is a love song that doesn't want to be,
yet is so blindingly obvious.

It says it all by not saying anything.

Monday, October 15, 2007

The Deafening Sounds of Silence

This morning I was wondering what it would be like if I could just up and leave to a place/country where I don’t know anybody and no one knows me. Start life afresh.

The power of anonymity—go somewhere where there aren’t nosy relatives and so-called friends. Ah, bliss. I crave for new experiences. Fearing the unknown has only resulted in a state of stagnation worse than the unknown itself. This should have been the unknown to be fearful of!! Sheesh!!
I wish there was a good enough reason to want to go away. It's not because I’m famous (I wish) and want to run far from the madding crowd. It's not because I’m running away from something or someone to go into hiding. Guess it's just that I’m tired. Of the life I’m currently leading. Which seems to be stuck in a rut.

And what one longs for is a refreshing change. In all respects. New scenery, new things to learn, new stuff to do. What would it be like I wonder. If one could take off without a care in the world and live only for yourself. I don’t remember what that feels like. I feel bound and tied down. This isn’t a good feeling at all and most of it is my own doing. Having laid my own bed, I am now lying in it. And it ain’t comfy.

There’s so much I wanna do, yet no action is taken in the right direction. So many self-imposed shackles. Wanna break free and fly high. Soar like a butterfly. And before I come out with worse lines, I must get some sleep. Ah, that’s it! Lack of sleep is the cause of all these wandering thoughts.

I don’t want to turn back the clock anymore. An exercise in futility anyway. Even nostalgia is not what it used to be :P Might as well look ahead at the new and the exciting. Until of course that gets old too at some point. Circle of life I guess.

When will I stop saying ‘And I still haven’t found what I’m looking for?’

Moral of the story: Too many random thoughts lead to a random post.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Can I Say It Loud?!

“No man is worth your tears,
but once you find one that is,
he won't make you cry."

But then...

“A girl can wait for the right man to come along but in the meantime that still doesn't mean she can't have a wonderful time with all the wrong ones."

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Making Memories

It’s been eons since my last posting. I don’t usually let it go so long. Well, I mean posts with meaning...the prior entry to this was written 2 years ago...not counted!

I have been busy as hell the past days...weeks but have nothing to tell you.

HINT: It is in the title, yes, that is what's keeping me busy.

Which is why this space has been silent as the grave...oh well, yeah...another winter in my blogging.
The long and short of it is that Everything’s Fine. And when EVERYTHING's fine, you know how it is.
When everything’s fine there’s not much to talk or write about, is there? It seems that I write best when in pain. Anguish is the ink in my pen and although I have dozens of little complaints and milestones, overall, I am well. Well as in really good...

With the exception of some crazy stuffs that I have been into...stuffs that I just can't put into my resume and can't just talk about at the table while having dinner, but definitely, something I would look back to each time I am all by myself in a hammock watching the sun set!

So, all has been CRAZY WELL.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

Thinking Out Loud

Today, I miss you more than usual.

As I await til you get to me, I prepare myself to receive you and set my focus upon those things that will provide us with comfort and contentment. Though my days often becomes frenetic and stressful, I send my thoughts to Polaris each night that he may deliver them to you as dreams. For it comforts me to hold you in my dreams… cuddling my pillow, I relinquish myself to slumber in the imagined warmth and scent of you.

Tonight, I sit here replete with images of tomorrow and salute you with merlot as well as my most ardent and admiring thoughts. I can almost taste you in the resin that crosses my lips, and I savor the sweet promise of you that spreads through my veins. You are my addiction, my endless delight, and I love you.

I rest in your arms each night in my dreams and listen to your heartbeat, leaning into you and knowing there is no better place than the safety and shelter you provide. My sweet, how easily comes my love to you, for in all things you have been succor, comfort, and nourishment. There is no thing within you that does not echo through me, our spirits dance in slow crescendo of shared joy. You are nectar rising to bless me with sweetness, and by your light I am made complete, made whole. Though we are apart, you are with me, my sweet saving grace. My thoughts, hopes, and dreams spin in slow orbit about you… like binary suns, we revolve ’round one and in one another are reflected in endless perfection.

As always, I hold the image of you gently and with much love.

Have a nice sleep...


This is another Meme which my friend asked me to do a month ago.
Finally, Kate, here it is!

word(s) of caution - you might need some aspirin with this! :-)

or maybe not... ;P

Three things that scare me:
1. my dangerous mind
2. tiny closed spaces
3. not having children

Three people who make me laugh:
1. My Mom
2. JBS
3. VYP

Three things I love:
1. Blogging/ Writing
2. Watching the sun set/ sun rise
3. Trying my wings

Three things I hate:
1. challenging the obvious (which is equal to stupidity)
2. jealousy (in any form, shape, kind)
3. cowardice

Three things I don’t understand:
1. what the *&%%^ am I doing on this lil watery planet thats crammed
full of idiots like me.
2. who gives people aka society the right to dictate how one should
live when they have no say in one's birth or death.
3. people who can't let go.

Three things on my desk:
1. my PC
2. my cellphone
3. my purse

Three things I’m doing right now:
1. asking myself some questions
2. reprhasing and paraphrasing those questions
3. looking for the right answers

Three things I want to do before I die:
1. climb Mt. Fuji again (this time with Yummy)
2. build a school for the less-privileged children
3. sleep with Pierce Brosnan (so now I can live forever...huh?!)

Three things I can do:
1. break some necks
2. dance my anxiety away
3. comfort myself

Three things you should listen to:
1. the sound of silence
2. sound of nature
3. your subconscious

Three things you should never listen to:
1. people trying to make up your mind for you
2. me singing. you might not survive the episode.
3. me not singing. I'm even worse just talking.

Three things I’d like to learn:
1. couple of languages
2. swimming
3. simplicity

Three favourite foods:
1. Japanese
2. my mom's lechon's kawali (among others)....heaven!
3. Pasta (in any shape, form and kind)

Three beverages I drink regularly:
1. Coffee
2. Beer
3. Tequila

Three TV shows/Books I watched/read as a kid:
1. Small Wonder
2. McGuyver
3. The Wizard of Oz

Monday, October 08, 2007

Interview with MissLittlePea

My apology to MissLittlePea, I know it took me really long to release this one but hey, better late than never, right?

The following brilliant questions is a Meme from MissPea, and my attempt to provide her some insights about myself...

1. Who did you look up to when you were growing up? Do you still look up to the same person/people now that you're older?

My parents. They never failed to put in an awe, up to now. All my achievements and who I am now, would be nothing without them. My greatest fear is, if I get married, I may not be able to provide my children what they have given me (with my only one brother), a perfect home.

2. Where do you feel most at home? With whom do you feel most at home?

It is not a question on is more on, what makes me feel most at home...nothing makes me feel home than watching the sunset/ sunrise...I can be anywhere in the world...just give me that moment once in awhile and I will be fine.

On with whom I feel most at home, this is quite tough. Can I say myself? lol Honestly, with my work and the people around me, I need nothing more than being with myself every now and then...being with some stranger would be good too... (I know this will open some discussions, I reserve this topic for another entry!)

3. Who do you usually call when you need advice? What is the best advice you ever received?

JBS and VYP never failed me in sharing with me their wisdom.

The best adviced I got from them, and that I am still having some issues reconciling with up to now is this...

Take time to have fun and don't take life too seriously. Enjoy your youth for you only pass through each phase once...the saying the youth had been wasted on the young is for people who had not taken time to enjoy their youth.

Now, I'm reminded by it, I want some tequila!!! :D

4. If you could go back time and experience the best of any era in any country, what time period and country would you choose?

I want to go back to the Gone With The Wind time, for some silly reasons, first I want to be Scarlet Ohara, second, I want their clothers and last would be, I want a kiss from Rhett Butler. And I'm not kidding at all!

5. What quality do you possess that you are the most proud of?

I think it would my passion for learning. Nothing can stop me from learning new things everyday, big and small. This continuing search for new things to learn each day sometimes puts my brain into some kind of an overload and post some challenges on my morales but they are simple irresistible!
If I may add, and though this is no big deal for me, most people are just amazed and annoyed at it. I have a special gift for forgiveness, and when I forgive, I do forget, to a fault sometimes.

So there, I hope I did not disappoint the author of those questions...

Have a nice week everyone!

P.S. I am starting my week so right!