November of My Life

What's up with November?

I remember writing this 5 years ago...

Today was a strange day.
I wanted to scream at someone.Anyone.
I wanted to cry.
I think I need to rent a sad movie and be by myself and just release.
I have no logical reason to feel this way. (Not even PMS is to blame!)
Especally since my attempt at building my dream career is going really well.
Last week was one of the highest points in my life thus far, and never ever thought it could be my lowest!
Maybe that's why I feel so down.
After the high, comes the low.
Maybe it's just because I get this way EVERY November.
Maybe because I need my head examined.
I don't know... all I know is


I'm exhausted
and sad
and elated
and scared
all at the same time.


I also feel like escaping.
Which is another thing that happens every November.


Like I want to be anywhere but HERE.


Anyone but ME.


Unfortunately I just have to go through November to make it to December...something which I always look forward to.