Only For Today

I’ve got the words. They’re swirling around inside my head. Problem is that they’re rather aimless in their swirling and I’m having trouble stringing them together into sentences.

So for today, no big post, no words of wisdom nor tidbits of advice. Today I just want slip into my skin and just be for a bit. I don't want to think about the numbness or the odd disconnection. I don't want to think about what needs to be done or what I should have done. I don't want to think about my next step and getting my wheels in motion.

Can I just rest my head in your lap and just be for a bit? I promise I won't do it too often or too much. I won't depend on you for longer than a minute or two. I won't bog your brain down with my words of discontent but hold my tongue and let you talk. I'll lay there and give you my energy and take a little of yours, but not too much, I promise. Just enough to get me through this day.

Today my energy is spent, my smile is hidden, my eyes want to close and I'm not sure if I have the strength to stand alone. So let me lean, k? Let me use you for my own selfish reasons and I promise when you need me to hold you up, I will return the favor.

Just not today.