I Found The Cure

I'm back from a long holiday....

I was really sick when the holiday started not to mention the fact that I spent the first day of the holidays working....

My tonsilitis was getting worst then and I had to take some really strong antibacterial or something which made me feel sick all the more....

So, on the second day, I took the rest and decided to stop taking my meds...and I mean STOP!

You might be thinking I was crazy especially if you have seen my swollen tonsils...but I would say it was the second best thing that I did. The first was my decision to stay in bed and get as much sleep as I can. I think I slept for more than 24 hours, well, I did have to wake up to eat once in awhile like every 12 hours? LOL

In the morning of the third day, I felt a whole lot better. The day after that, wow, I forgot I had tonsilitis, I felt nothing at all!

Sleep I therefore conclude is the best medicine.

Happy Easter to all Christians....

Answers, huh?

Answers, I have them all. Always.

How to get a good job? Got that covered.Troubled love life? Not a problem.Is there a God? Get comfortable, this one could take a few minutes.

Then next time you go to a bookstore, you may want to go to the self-help section. Then try counting the number of books they have on making new and improved self. So many answers, most of them are only 19.99 or less (yes, I range the prices into dollars). And you notice, there have to be something to them, right?

The challenge comes not in finding answers. Answers are everywhere, cheap and plentiful. Truths comes in shades of grey, each nearly as valid as the last.

The tricky part is finding the right answers for us.

Our problem, as a society, is that we settle. We discover an answer on our own, read one in a book, or catch it on Oprah - and then we embrace it. If it’s a close enough fit for our life, it may even stay with us for a while.

Close enough, for me, isn’t good enough.

Because even if I find the right answer today, more likely than not, it won’t be the right answer for me next month or next year.

We evolve. Situations change. Self-discovery opens new possibilities. Answers, like life, must be malleable. Must be adaptable. For me, the only absolute is that there are none.

Butterflies...

Last night was special in more ways than one...

He said "Hi"

I turned around not letting him see the smile that had spreas all over my face and replied "Yes I am..."

Any idea where I stole that line? *wink

Can you help me?

I'd rather know if you had turned the page
If you go faster than I do
Suddenly it's not so clear just what I am to you
Am I friend, am I lover, do we still need each other
When you touch me, when you touch me baby I can tell

What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well

I can see clearly how im hurting you
Every breath gives you a way
All we go on separate roads has gone in the way.
Am I friend, am I lover, do we still need each other
When you hold me, when you hold me baby I can tell

What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well

Time became a poison looking slowly on my home
Screwing all the memories, Is it tearing us apart
When you touch me, when you touch me baby I can tell

What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well

What do we mean to each other, am I friend, am I lover is it over now
If this is it then why bother tell me where do we take it from here
What do we mean to each other am I friend ,am I lover, is it over now
Do you love me still or do you just mean well

Do you love me still or do you just mean well

When the going gets tough...

Mariposa gets slogging.

That is what it feels like since I started with this company 10 months ago. There is really nothing wrong with spending more hours at work if it is necessary, but when it becomes like part of your shift to stay at least 3 hours everyday, that is a different story. Personally I wold say what is the point of overtime if you are able to do it within the your shift? I hate to think that loyalty and hardwork are measure by the number of OTs you render in a month. For me, that is inefficiency! But what about unreasonable deadlines? Ah, that is a different story.

That is my story for the day.

I am working of a zillion of processes and procedures right now, not to mention the fact that I need to draft the policy that would suport each of those, including forms, flow charts, everything! And, I have until mid of April to do them all. Fine, 15 days is not so bad, well, can I mention the fact that 5 days of that 15 days are holidays? So that leaves me with just 10 days, less my rest days, so that makes it 7 days! Unless I decide to literally live in my office for those days, I just don't think I would be able to finish everything.

To make matter worst, I have to prepare for an exam. Yes, another set of exam to get accreditation with COPC, and I only have those 5 holidays to make my preparations. This exam is like a make or break in my career at this moment, damn if I get it, damn if I don't. It's like the devil and the deep blue sea...now I'm getting a headache.

I'm squeezing my head for a focus, but focus on what? My processes or my exam? I should say everything are so untimely for me right now. I'm going through a lot os stress with work politics, emotional conflicts, issues with relationship (oh yes, I have a love life too you know, something so important to me, and has been neglected because of this so called job that I have) personal needs, and a long list of what have you.

I just can't help but feel shitty about all these predicaments...I have a lot of things to do and I just don't think I'd be able to finish them all even if I work for 24 hours. how freaking cool is that?
Well that’s about it, I suppose. Everything else is status quo. I still have my body parts, and I think I still have my sanity too. :P

I am just hoping for the best and getting ready for the worst.

Guess we won’t know till we know.