When the going gets tough...

Mariposa gets slogging.

That is what it feels like since I started with this company 10 months ago. There is really nothing wrong with spending more hours at work if it is necessary, but when it becomes like part of your shift to stay at least 3 hours everyday, that is a different story. Personally I wold say what is the point of overtime if you are able to do it within the your shift? I hate to think that loyalty and hardwork are measure by the number of OTs you render in a month. For me, that is inefficiency! But what about unreasonable deadlines? Ah, that is a different story.

That is my story for the day.

I am working of a zillion of processes and procedures right now, not to mention the fact that I need to draft the policy that would suport each of those, including forms, flow charts, everything! And, I have until mid of April to do them all. Fine, 15 days is not so bad, well, can I mention the fact that 5 days of that 15 days are holidays? So that leaves me with just 10 days, less my rest days, so that makes it 7 days! Unless I decide to literally live in my office for those days, I just don't think I would be able to finish everything.

To make matter worst, I have to prepare for an exam. Yes, another set of exam to get accreditation with COPC, and I only have those 5 holidays to make my preparations. This exam is like a make or break in my career at this moment, damn if I get it, damn if I don't. It's like the devil and the deep blue sea...now I'm getting a headache.

I'm squeezing my head for a focus, but focus on what? My processes or my exam? I should say everything are so untimely for me right now. I'm going through a lot os stress with work politics, emotional conflicts, issues with relationship (oh yes, I have a love life too you know, something so important to me, and has been neglected because of this so called job that I have) personal needs, and a long list of what have you.

I just can't help but feel shitty about all these predicaments...I have a lot of things to do and I just don't think I'd be able to finish them all even if I work for 24 hours. how freaking cool is that?
Well that’s about it, I suppose. Everything else is status quo. I still have my body parts, and I think I still have my sanity too. :P

I am just hoping for the best and getting ready for the worst.

Guess we won’t know till we know.