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Thursday, February 21, 2008

I need A Vacation Away From Myself

I am skilled at making everything look good on the surface, but something isn't quite right. It feels as if the truth keeps slipping away from me just as I get closer to it. And I'm trying to make the most sense out of it.

My mind is body aches. I don't have fever...but I'm feeling I'm suffering from some sort! Muscle pain is horrific...nothing too serious, yet everything seems to be a discomfort.

I skipped work yesterday to just stay in bed. I had been sleeping most of the time since weekend, waking up TIRED.

My mind is in a race and it is stressing my body!

I'm trying to shelve my mind. I'm trying to make my thoughts STOP. I'm trying not to focus on everything.

Ah, compartmentalization, I beseech you!

This was originally written last Feb. 19 at around 8:27 PM. I wanted to publish this to RealMental, yet while waiting for it to get to that site, I'm publishing it HERE.


thailandchani said...

Compartmentalizing may not be the way to go. Perhaps flowing with it.. and seeing where it leads you. It might cause you to create changes.. but that can't be entirely bad, can it? :)

BipolarLawyerCook said...

Well, I'm hoping you're feeling better since writing this. As you know, it's important not to be too hard on yourself. I don't do compartmentalizing too well, myself. I'm much better at falling-apart-mentalizing. ; ) Take care, and if you can take a vacation day or 3? Maybe a chance of scenery someplace quiet will do the trick.

Wholly Burble said...

Hope you're up and feeling like your good self by now. I'm a little behind on reading posts--posting too LOL. I caught you had something on your site for me--I'll see if I can find it. Sorry to be so late--but had some nursing to do for my son who injured himself at work. He's back to work now and I'm trying to get caught up on my blogging LOL.

Driftwood and Pumpkin said...

I think as women, we all suffer from this a tad. I personally go in cycles and a lot of it has to do with the seasons. I know that sounds stupid, but the amount of sunlight and lack of warmth tends to affect how I feel. Hang it there...we are all rooting for you!

Unknown said...

Oh yeah, I do that too. :) It doesn't feel good but hope things are clearer now. :)

Jen said...

Have you been exercising? I find that's the best way to get my mind to quiet down. I hope you're doing better by now. Huge hugs!