ss_blog_claim=5555364cf3e98c39578eb4fbc35f307a ss_blog_claim=5555364cf3e98c39578eb4fbc35f307a

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Living Life


...one day at a time!



Not quite sure if days/ weeks are actually getting longer or if it's just another seasonal thing that wrecked havoc in my system! Regardless, I am still hoping this will be yet another delightful week for me...

Almost two years ago, I wrote Going Nowhere Fast referring to me professional career. Now that's almost 2 years! Where did time go?! What have happened...

Nothing much really...except that I have changed...and I have stopped caring.

What will you do when people whom you have been helping all this time bite back you? What will you do when at the end of each project they simply refuse to acknowledge your help and still went on claiming you have not done anything? What will you do when people around you points their fingers at you accusing you of something you have no idea what about?

Nothing...

I'm not going to do anything...will not explain...will not confront...will not care.

I am tired.

I cannot do anything to how things are going around me but I can certainly do something on how I react and manage things...

Do I get hurt? Not anymore.

Why not? Simple. I have stopped caring.

No, I'm not saying I'm calloused. I'm just saying out loud, if people refuse the gift of my friendship because they just want to use me help them get whatever they need done, then it's not my problem. After all I have developed compassion for pathetic people.

But God will not forsake His people. He counts every good intention we have...and He will not let injustice reign forever, and I take comfort with that.

So this week, Isaiah 41:13 reminds me to stay steadfast, for the Lord is in my side. He is holding me gently...and will carry me through as He had carried me through.

Not that I'm necessarily facing adversity in the literal sense of the word, it's just that, things have been extremely rough for me over the past few months...well...make that...years now! And I'm now finally starting to feel that bit of hope that would allow me to shift gear without rocking myself...

So this week and the days to come is most important to me. I can almost see the road in front of me...and it's something!

I am praying hard for a good news to come...please do hold me in your prayers...for what I am hoping is very monumental to me.

(I hope to be able to talk about it here soon without any apprehension that some lurkers will spoil it...maybe somebody can guest me to write. *wink*)

And once again, amidst all the challenges...

I'm trying to take better care of myself.
I'm trying to eat better.
I'm trying to be more active.
I'm trying to pay closer attention to my skin.
I'm trying to simplify my surroundings.
I'm trying to improve my mental health by being more congruent.
I'm trying to think of how my actions now will affect me later when I make decisions.

I am not looking too far for now...I am focusing on the now...after all, I only need one day at a time...

Celebrate with us as we share inspiring Bible verses at Word Filled Wednesday...

Prayers and blessing to you all!!!

20 comments:

the princess said...

that was beautiful. I am sorry you are struggling, but glad that you have found some form of peace in it all. I love reading what you write. it makes me feel inspired and good. just good.

being taken advantage of feels so yucky. I have had this happen as well. it's so hard to make the changes to adjust your reaction. it's so hard, but so worth it. I have been working really hard myself of changing my reaction to given situations. to be calmer. it helps.

SandyCarlson said...

I often think the only way to win some battles is by not fighting them. Let the back-biters do their thing. You know what you did. When you stay above them, you become highly visible.

LittlePea said...

It's only normal to separate your feelings from your job. Especially if you're protecting yourself from negativity. Hang in there. And you're so right, you can't control what goes on around you. You can only control your own reactions....

Denise said...

Sorry you are feeling down sweetie, take care.

Esthermay Bentley-Goossen said...

Be encouraged!

Anonymous said...

I have just lifted you up in prayer, that whatever His will is for you will be worked in you and in your life and that you'll find peace. Things are very hard these days, it seems, for so many of us. Such a blessing to remember that whoever else might forsake us, our God will NOT!

God bless you.

Kristi said...

Keep holding fast to Him. I can hardly wait to hear how He moves. Obedience brings blessings!

Anonymous said...

Great verse and photo. Praying that God would guide, direct and keep you in the palm of his hand.

Amy, a redeemed sheep said...

Keep leaning on Him and reading His Word...He is faithful. :o)

Anonymous said...

God bless you dear sister and I'm sorry to hear of the things that have happen.

It's difficult but it's mindful what our Heavenly Father went and goes through and a reminder that like Him, it hurts but it hurts more that there are people out there who truly does not know Him or what it is like to be unconditional.

God bless you in your strong post!

Anonymous said...

a very timely reminder of how fabulous our Lord is! thank you very much!

Patricia said...

This morning I read a chapter from Jerry Bridges' book The Pursuit of Godliness. It is on patience. Your post was like reading the chapter all over.

The definition for patience in one section is: "the ability to suffer a long time under the mistreatment of others without growing resentful or bitter."

The author quotes Paul in encouraging us to imitate Christ: "When they hurled their insults at Him, He did not retaliate; when He suffered He made no threats. Instead, He entrusted Himself to Him who judges justly." 1 Peter 2:23

Your responses to your experiences show a woman growing toward Godliness by making God-like patience part of your character.

Thank you for sharing today.

Typing One-Handed

Anonymous said...

Isn't it amazing how God doesn't always change our circumstances, he changes us!

Praying that you see the face of our almighty, everlasting God in your circumstances, today, and each day.

Kathy b

Peggy said...

Blessings Mariposa...Look up & Hold on to Him!I love the photo & the verse! Let it really speak to you!
Fear not...He will help you! seek Jesus with all your heart & all these things will be added onto you, your professional career...true friends, not users or loosers, You are a child of the King & He wants better for you! May God hold you in the palm of His hand...one day at a time...
take care of His temple, enjoy WFW!
Fill yourself, your mind, your heart with God's Word! Breathe!!!

Tracy said...

Continue to lean on and rest in Him. Praying for his perfect peace.

Blessings,
Tracy

Laurie Ann said...

I'm sorry for what you've been enduring. It's hard. I work outside the home and have faced the same sort of struggles in the past. It's hard. Grace and compassion are key - both given and received from God. Precious picture, verse and post. I love it. I'm holding you in my prayers...Happy WFW!

Alexis said...

Sorry to hear of your troubles, but I'm glad that God is with you and I know he'll carry you through it all! I've said a prayer for you today - have a wonderful week!!

Melanie said...

Praying that it will all work out and that God will hold you steadfast.

Happy WFW!

Addicted to Beadz said...

Mariposa,

Thank you for your kind words you left me. Life is difficult at times.

Know that I'm praying for you.

Blessings!
Cheryl

Amydeanne said...

a heartfelt post mariposa! hugs and prayers!